Immolation

I’m home again for a bit and am going to try being productive and not leaving town until the Terjit party in the middle of next month. Me being flat broke and a month behind on my rent also helps.

My goal is to sort of use the time as a period of reflection and focusing. Granted, I have in the past wanted to have a period of reflection and focusing, and generally just managed to have a period of lazing about and doing fuck all.

I figure I ought to have better luck with it if I have some sort of reward worked in. I mean, I like inner peace and all that jazz, but it’s amorphous and hard to gage. Pretty much the only time I managed to consistently go to the gym here was leading up to WAIST. It was the possibility that being fitter would make it more likely that someone would make out with me that motivated me.

What do I want in my life right now? The big things that are lacking are a sense of professional direction and general loneliness. I’m expecting to be pretty busy with projects and whenever I get busy, I tend to kill time with productive, but not important things. For instance, today I was supposed to be finishing EcoDev’s site, but instead blew three hours reworking JulBrew’s. So, I’m pretty sure that I’ll get my résumé redone and that’s the next big thing on my professional timeline.

This leaves the loneliness bit. Hmm, what to do there? Well, the emotional stuff I need another person for. That leaves the physical. Intriguing. ☺ What sorts of things would a person do to get in top shape for lovin’?

What goes into good sex?

• Sensuality: Being able to let go and get caught up in the experience. You just let the world drop away except for the experience of the moment. The only prep I know for this one is meditation. For me it is at least a month of fifteen to twenty minutes daily before I’m even starting to be able to really focus.
• Fitness: Depending on the pace and style, sex can be pretty demanding both from a strength and cardiovascular standpoint. How do you develop that? Go to the gym.
• Attractiveness: Sex is more fun when you’re comfortable. You’ve got to be happy with your body in order to feel comfortable. This is two pronged in that you’ve got to accept yourself, which the meditation helps with, but that self-acceptance is simpler if you’ve put work into how you look. That means the gym and following a diet
• Pubococcygeus: Much like Kegels for women, men can exercise the musculature involved in sexual intercourse. Exercises are supposed to increase depth of feeling, staying power and, for some guys, enable multiple orgasms. How much truth there is, I can’t say, but it certainly sounds interesting.

That’s all I can come up with. Anyone else have any ideas? I suppose getting rich or learning to be funny would increase my chances of actually getting to put the stuff into practice. As for actual functional stuff is there anything else? I don’t think drinking has any significant effect on sexual performance (other than while actually intoxicated). So, I don’t think detoxing would help. ☺

As for the opportunity to use these traits? Well, I’ve tried (and failed) half a dozen times to start meditating again since I’ve been here. I’ll wait till I’ve got the powers before worrying as to their use. ☺