From: GEMINI::WJH3957 "W.J. Holcomb --" 30-OCT-2000 10:40:40.04 To: S Subj: re: dreams
I had a couple of dreams last night. One was of me fighting with my dad. We were fistfighting and he is a big guy and I could see in his face that he meant to hurt me. I was scared, but I was not giving up either. We went at it and I don’t remember how it went exactly but eventually I threw him over my shoulder and when he hit the ground he twisted and it screwed up his back. He was lying on the ground just writhing and I was upset that I had hurt him without meaning to. I came over to him and held him still while I kneaded his back and the muscles calmed down. I wasn’t feeling caring exactly, but like this was a necessity. I had alot of resistance to being that close to him. I could feel myself trying to make me push away and just leave him.