Here’s the low down in brief. I am not going to the meeting tonight because I forgot that it was happening and I scheduled a date with S over it. I am in a bit of a muddle over whether I should cancel my date with S and go to the meeting. As it is I am not going to and I feel irresponsible.
More and more I am of the state of picking something and going with it. If I find out it was a mistake then things can be fixed later (or not.) Either way spending time feeling guilty about choosing what I chose to do serves little other than to waste my precious time.