I feel really bad today. I have been putting in lots and lots of time working on different projects and I don’t feel like my work is being recognized or supported.
The thing is that I wish I didn’t care if anyone else cared about what I am doing but I do. No, that’s part of it but not what is really getting to me. I think that I am upset because of power. I want for the energy that I am devoting to this to empower me and give me a higher standing in the Honors elite and I don’t feel like it is. I don’t want to be a lackey.
Currently Honorswise I am finishing up major revisions to the Computer Chapter, rewriting a whole slew of programs for the incoming freshmen, trying to get the webboard organized for the fall, trying to organize a subdomain so we can set up a webserver and put the HPEO stuff online.
I just feel like I am putting a whole lot of my time and energy into this and I want to have a part in the decision making process. It’s been bothering me a bit over the last couple of days that I think I’m taking on too much by myself but I don’t know how else to do it.
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