What exactly are you supposed to do when you meditate. I know that you think you’ve been over this, but you’ve been over this is the abstract intuitive kind of way that you have such a penchant for and that leaves me ofttimes without even an inkling of the topic covered.
I sat last night and it is my third night in a row. This is for me fast approaching a new record.
I have only been sitting for 10 minutes though. I sit and count my breath until something tells me that it is time to get up. I usually try to sit for longer but it doesn’t go away usually so I go to bed.
Last night was a new experience. I fell asleep in the living room and dragged myself to bed. I was lying there and thinking about the fact that I was going to miss meditating if I went to sleep. Before I have had this conversation with myself and have ended up just going to sleep. Last night though I ran through a chain of thought that I have every so often, seeing my life as a series of individual choices each of which is integral to shaping the person that I will become. It is not the consequences of the choice that matter so much as it is the person that I agree to become by making the choices.